DÉJÀ VU

They say man is least himself when he talks in his own person, give him a mask and he will tell you the truth.
I'm not going to censor myself to comfort your ignorance.
I do not know if I can convince you to reason out with me, but I am me and I'm not sorry for that.

Now I know change is good but each time I have seen change often was it for the worst.

So blame my roots for that matter.

Actually I do mean to use a lot of sentences to help us be on the same page, so how about a chat with your brain?

Which language should I use...

"Nilipokuwa mdogo news ilikua kitu politicians respond to A.S.A.P. but sikuizi tumechukulia mapresenters wetu kama actors."

I am not pointing fingers, neither do I appreciate the taking of sides.

As a matter of fact, if anyone of us is guilty,

Then to find the guilty you need not look far, just look at the mirror.

Tribalism;

I do very well understand the love of your own kind but that should not lead to the hatred of another.

Ain't we all Kenyans?

Policemen;

  "Because while trancheons may be used in lieu of conversation words will always retain their power.."

Let me narrow that down for you. We all know that a kid should be punished for his/her wrongs right?

But why punish the kid so much that it raises the question "was that crime so vicious as to warrant that kind of punishment."

And if the kid is really on the wrong, then what good is the punishment if its administered without justifying why he was punished and showing him the right path afterwards?

And why give him a punishment that does not really fit his mistake. 

I hope I did not loose you between the lines.

Polititians ..... Feuding

Yes, we all know as a matter of fact there's always an opposition party, there always will be. Bt how come we forget we are all fighting for the same thing that is for the betterment of our country.

Maybe that's just me, and honestly I'm a little bit confused here.

Is presidency just for the power or for the betterment of our country?

Remember remember the late two thousand and seven massacre.

Late because it is dead and gone.

I know not of any reason why that bloody season should ever be forgot.
Or do we need V *(from: V for vendetta) to tell us that?

We are our only way out.

We can not allow ourselves into another déjà vu of that sort.

Are we on the same page?

Now this is only me, I know you have your own opinion

I'm merely just thinking out loud.

Love?

Ever wondered what love really is?
Not because you do not know but because your experience of it just disapproves your thoughts.
Has experience ever hit you so hard that anytime you are so happy you get so scared?
Ever loved someone so much your only mistake was to love too much?


I remember reading somewhere, "life is just like playing a game of snakes and ladders just when you are getting along fine, happy or rich, you get zapped back into the mire"
Undeserved and unexpected.
But look at it this way,
What if those zaps represent the external world or life, while your so called climb up the ladder is your fight against life.
What if you grasp hold of those zaps and use their energy as your energy?

It gets tough sometimes.

I mean, sometimes its hard to breathe, feels like flailing and scuffling a string of disasters,

Like your lifestyle is in a mess.

Sometimes its even hard to keep moving forward and stay focused.

I'm sorry to say this but sometimes, its hard to stay grateful, to say thank you, because of the pain.

I know that.

I have been there

At times we are very stubborn like a beetle caught in a flood, clinging to our old ladder, half drowning ourselves in the process.
You know what I think?
Forget dogma and rules. Do not get entangled with other people's ideas or labels.
Instead find your own truth by living and really loving every moment with passion.
Meditate. Take each moment and live it with wonder. Live life the same way you listen to music, with wonder and joy for every moment. Be free!
Don't get confused.
Enjoy it while it lasts as long as it lasts.

Yeah! No kidding it will make you crazy.
You spend your life time in a comfortable dream state believing in destiny.
Then reality snaps you awake like a kick in the teeth.
Bad things happen as often as good things.
People who think they're meant to be together, aren't.
Turns out we're nothing more than chemicals hurtling through space, haphazardly bouncing off each other feeling stupid we ever believed there was some grand plan.
Well what do you know?
Love ain't always enough.

Short lived

A family of grouse racing through the grass, blackbirds and rocks tending their nests,

The trees flaunting their fresh green leaves and the field full of white blossom.

The refreshing scent, the beautiful scenery.

Boy had it been long since my world felt this ressurected!

From the N to the O to the N to O.

No defined word describes the captivity my heart is held in by him.

The beauty he holds, the stares he gets,

The hope he stirs up in me, the cares he gives,

And Man! The fame of Christ that is inside of him

So few I have met with a full heart, but the uniqueness in his...

Forgive me love, I have been doting on you.

Picturing me and u together, through every weather.

Far as it be from reality, I'm stiffling bearing it all.

Not to complain though.. but Lord, a miracle perhaps...
Just for this to last a little bit longer if not for eternity.
For it will not be long till I find a way, to run away.
Because I can not bear being the lead.
Because each time I have known love,
I have not known reciprocation.
Maybe it is better in radioactive that i repell the ones I love, keep things simple..
Absence makes the heart grow fonder ,or so I have heard.
But I will choose time and again to just run away,
my apologies darling,
But I got to run..

Unless by a miracle, just by a miracle!!
Lord can I please get this miracle?

God's hands will mould me.

I had an encounter today, Standing by the mirror.

Face to face with imperfection, I starred at my reflection,


Neglecting all her potential, But dwelling all in all on her flaws.

She starred back at me, Communicating about me,

All the mistakes and wrongs,  All my expectations gone amis,

All the negativity she stirred up in me, about me,Lowering my self-esteem.

I gues starring and listening was never good enough, So today, you listen to me,

I have met very few people with a full heart, and you won't stop me from being one of them

This series of reflections you show me, just ain't who I want to be!

Yes, its been hard, many are the times i have wanted to be invisible.

Many are the times I thought I did not need the light, I just wanted darkness to hide me.

But there's a whole dream ahead of me, I won't say I'm wise

I will have my regrets, learn to call them lessons because I'm learning,

Learning to keep my head up, so you do not get a chance to pull me back.

For I won't think twice about going on my feet, to seek my father's face.

God's hands will mould me!!